What Is Total Amnesia?

“Memories?”  I’m confused.  “What are you saying?  You’re saying I have lived before.”

Espree is staring at me with a shocked expression on her face.

“Apparently we have neglected a very important point here Tim.  It appears that the times I have describe you in terms of millions of years flew right over your head. 

“When I say you have become trapped in this universe, I did not mean it just happened!  This has been going on for billions of years!  Most people you see have been around millions probably billions of years!  Do you realize how many lifetimes that is?  Can you imagine how many memories you have?”

I am shocked.  Of all the unbelievable things Espree has told me, this is the thing I simply can’t accept.  It’s so…it’s so personal.  Sure, you can tell me the Universe is a trap or the planet is being harvested or even that I was once a free spirit who has become trapped.  It’s all nice philosophic, abstract ideas that I can use when I’m in some contemplative mood or sitting around smoking weed with my friends.  Now she is telling me I may be millions of years old and that I actually have memories of the whole experience.  Well, I don’t.  And If I did I would most certainly know it wouldn’t I?  I would certainly have some kind of recollection if it were true right?   

“Espree, I really don’t buy that re-incarnation stuff.  It’s totally unscientific and, as far as I’m concerned, bunk for weirdo’s.  I don’t have any memories of other lifetimes―is that what you’re saying I should have?  Well I don’t, and anyway, even if I did live before how could I remember anything if I no longer have the brain that contains the memories?”

Espree is staring at me with a look of shock.  “You honestly can’t recall anything can you?”

“Well, no I don’t recall any past life memories and if I did live before why wouldn’t I remember?

“Hmm, total amnesia,” says Espree to herself, “amazing”.